Facebook Diaries pt. 2 (10/15/2024) Magic / Black Spells / Destruction / Moon Worship

(I think the more you go through in life the more you realize becoming an asshole is the result of going through hard times, and people either make it harder for you, or seldom try to comfort you... And it's the contempt that drives you to assholery...)

I'm not sure why people always are trying to destroy me... After all I'm the good guy... Maybe jealousy, maybe envy, maybe cynicism... All I know is my reputation proceeds me to the point even I'm not aware of who I truly am sometimes... All that destructive magic people cast on me will eventually come back to them... Eat their health and souls... If I ever cast a black spell, I wasn't aware of it... Or it was deserved...

You're only in a rush to succeed, when deep down you know you're up against too much, people are trying to stop you, or you keep getting you stalled... You're enemies push you so hard, that time becomes critical, and you sort of go up in flames trying to break through the barriers they set up... Don't blame yourself, because we need to mobilize...

My biggest downfall was lust... Only because I was unaware, what I was doing wrong... not to deserve love... No one will ever tell you who you really are... They'll keep you in the dark, while they nip at your ankles, and toes... Then you give out a cough, smoke a cigarette, and light a candle... Say a prayer, then feel the lightening inside, after you burn from the holy fire...

I'm starting to wear my robes again... "Why Michael, are you a priest???"... "No, because I'm fucking cold!!!!"

Raising a fist at your enemies is very bad, unless you have spiritual clearance... When you've had enough of the bullshit... If you ever punch someone out, and chuckle right after... Then you didn't do it out of anger, but more out of love and principle... You're in the clear my dear... You shalt not be condemned...

The stronger your patience, the stronger your soul, and spirit... Because impatience leads to bad, rash decisions.... Only a King or Queen, can be patient enough to dole out justice, and sort problems in a competent way... Anger makes you reckless, unless there is a monkey on your back who is riding you home, like a demonic force... We pay for the sins of our Father's and ancestors... Until then we have to patiently wait to reach our destinations...

Moderation is a bunch of bullshit, especially when you're put to the test... When you got to go, you got to go, and quench the fires burning inside you... Otherwise the fire will burn you to a cinder... All it really really is, and what it's supposed to be, is fuel for the fire... Then you're on the go... And you're hurdling through space...

I felt good yesterday, but the winds became angry... I could barely leave the house, but I managed to do five walks through town... And at night I rested really well until I woke up and the full moon was intensely white, pulsing through my bedroom window, through the blinds... I said there it is staring at me again... And then I became anxious, and fidgety... This morning was pleasant, until I felt a little sick...

For some reason I have this relationship w/ full moons... It just started happening this last summer... This never happened before where I was engaged w/ the moons intensity... And usually I'm aware it's out even before I notice it visually... It's my cue to leave the house usually, or lie in bed looking at it through the window...

Of course my belief in black magic has risen since this fall season... Witchcraft... Don't worry I won't be using magic for destructive purposes... Although my belief in the supernatural has gotten stronger and I feel comforted that I can utilize this to protect myself from the evil that followed me in the past... I was never scared of the dark, but being in the light makes you feel safe and free...

I went from Christianity, to Buddhism, to Hinduism, then to Islam, to Witchcraft... All of which are lunar religions... Some of the Catholic Bible say worshipping the moon is against God, but their were many people in the Bible who were Moon worshipers... And delving into witchcraft also was also unexceptable... But I believe I was chosen for the lunar path because of the tyranny of the Catholic Church...

For the first time in my life I did a full load of clothes in the bath tub... And put a clothes line up... In my apartment...